Erasing you

Memories are so vivid and so impacting. You need to go back to them once every other night. To make you live, to make you feel human, to make your heart beat. But there is a day, when you need to make them go away.

I have had always sought to do go back to those memories on those nights, those evenings, when I opened my palms , closing my eyes , trying to feel those long tender soft fingers in between. But yet I close them into a fist, only to feel my fingernails pinching into my life line. Cutting into my life line, hurting me, deep inside...deep deep inside.

It is time for closure. I sought it. It is a joyous feeling, it is a suspense, it is a pain. It is indeed a confusing instant. I am happy for the love of my life to be happy, I am mellow for myself. I want to be selfish, but I can't be, I am just not that. I am happy for you. For who is happy , to see me away, free, careless, above all the others. This brings tears to my eyes. 
Makes no sense, I want to be happy, I am smiling, with a dry mouth.

But at least there is someone else,

And for me...I have to share this with a key board and 14" LCD screen . Goodbye 25 years !

Comments

  1. Fali1:40 PM, August 17, 2011

    can feel the words.. :)

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  2. Pinky11:18 PM, August 17, 2011

    there is always another beginning after you let go an old chapter..keep smiling..u look even more devil :)

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  3. Heart'n'Soul1:27 PM, October 24, 2011

    touching - very!
    but life has a lot to offer, just like the pain
    it is as beautiful as u make it - and i know u have the talent to do tht :)

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  4. Prerna Lal12:47 AM, November 21, 2011

    Sometimes appreciation has no words, just a smile to offer - Its one of those instants rightnow! :)

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  5. Fali2:13 AM, January 15, 2012

    naya blog chahiye paul...naya waala!

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  6. snigdha12:52 PM, February 14, 2012

    very emotive....n life goes on n u move on....:)

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  7. snigdha12:53 PM, February 14, 2012

    very emotive....n life goes on n u move on....:)

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  8. Prerna Lal1:10 PM, March 09, 2017

    Just re-read this post! You should resume blogging... may not fit into the routine, I've also been trying since long! But you must, its a treat to read! :)

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